I guess I've been really lucky and things have been going my way, even if it doesn't, there's always a back up for me to fall on. But this time.... I'll have to learn to face rejection.
Its just that I've always been looking forward to it..... Since alevels ended or smth. And I cannot believe I'm missing such an important phase of my life. Ppl can say it's just a camp or it's ok there'll always be other chances, but no. It's not the same. It will never be. And that sucks knowing out of 900 over ppl they picked 448 which is a tad less than half. And what are the chances of you not getting in? Why am I always not good enough? I have friends who applied for 2 camps, and got into both, but me.... I bet all my stakes on this and didn't even get in to the one and only choice I made. To think I was so naive that I thought it was a first come first serve basis, I thought I was safe. That sucks man it really does. Gonna be so bummed for a long long time. How do ppl face rejection without anywhere else to go???
But yes I understand life is not a wish granting factory. So yup I'll have to suck it. I swear this only pushes me to work harder, get better. Fuck you, just fuck your bloody inefficiencies and watch me grow.
