Fucking pissed with my mum bloody hell superstitious and judgmental and demanding. Now I can't even choose what school I want to enter!?!? What the fuck. Ok so you made my choice of ngee ann four years ago and now history is on repeat. My sister had suffered now the cycle returns and oh my turn is up next. Bloody hell.
Just submitted my choices, didn't have a lot to choose from anyway since I'm in arts stream. Haiiii I was feeling confident about my choices and they had to waver my faith in myself. Rarely am I so decisive and determined about my future and they have to push me into the black hole.
Fuck my life this is a time when I really hate my parents they think I'm stubborn and rebellios what not and they think they are doing the best for me for my future. I want to make my own decisions I'm already 17 for god sake.
Entered AJ today, it's really a mugger school. So I'm the only nass person there again like 4 years ago. Felt really lonely and sad when seeing Girls and boys in groups, didn't make any new friends cause I was busy wallowing in self pity. Followed the crowd up to the hall and after dismissal out of school cause I couldn't talk to anyone. Pathetic huh, but at least I felt "independent"
Forced to go to nyjc for a co trial, fuck you guys know my skills cannot make it plus I don't even know where the hell are the notes anymore I don't wanna go there to throw face omg why can't my parents act smart abit and read my mind. Fuck can't they stop acting like they know everything when they don't even know the basic thing of what their daughter feels. Someone please kidnap me tomorrow omg..... Maybe this is the reason why some kids commit suicide or something. Fucking pressurized I don't wanna live my life like that. Fuck all control freaks, fuck you all
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