its the last week of school guys!!!!! SO YA. HANG THE F ON.

argh all the negative thoughts in my head.
"i cant do this"
"why am i so stupid"
"ahya study also fail might as well dont study"
"why other people can score so well but not me"
"why everyone so hardworking but im here pigging"
"i hate myself"
"nobody cares"
"nobody understands"

some are true.
some people are that uncaring & insensitive, period.

Anyway school has been really mundane and school time seems damn long after stepping down from cca. Besides days where we end early without burden practices hehe. (like today)
Some updates:

Fri - Vesak Day
Headed to Jovin's (at like 9am all the way train ride to JE then to BB, kill me please) but it was ok surprisingly. i honestly thought it would be awkward and just not that fun. baked red velvet!!! it was sooooooooo good thanks to grace the baking jesus. The guys forced us to play Halo, OMG i suck at video/ electronic games for real. not even kidding i suck. big time. yup i got the message after them throwing insults at me for the thousandth time & killing me in the game the moment i resurrect.
had fun jamming with them on the piano/guitar & just slacking (& avoiding nicky the dog)
Then met swa for dinner & studied at mac near his place! Rather fruitful hehe :-)

Sat- spend quality time with simpson day
ya ok im damn needy & clingy i know.
studied in the morning then met swaswa, talked about deep stuff, it was good. Like it brought us closer. & we cooked lunch! (or he cooked) hehehehe it was a fun day & time flew by like that.

Sunday - supposedly mugging day
morning - noon, finished as many homework as possible. I swear the teachers think the vesak day break is some kinda mini june holiday break, gave us so much homework to complete ARGH. then car, yy & ser came over to study!!! it was all good before serene came.......... HAHAHAHHAHA. Then we couldnt focus. Jammed & karaoke-d until my family started to stroll into the house... awkwardz, we got softer & softer HAHAHAHAHHA can you imagine it?!
It was so fun i miss them so damn much.

Monday - TIRED AS HELL. cause i slept so late. cause the girls left at like 1030 the day before. BOOOOOOOOOOORING. chem test,  im so pissed off with myself.

Tuesday - PE was zzzzzz and it was such a long and boring day OMG. struggled to keep awake in class. but met joanne & aaron for dinner, Bitches, i scarifaced my studying time for them. it was good get together time ah. I feel like we're people of all walks of life.

Today - rather short day, math corrections lecture, pissed off with my stupidity, chem test, then econs test was shitty, pissed off with myself x 2. then homed & met the boy for a froyo date!!!! hehe i love spending time with swa. im damn myself with him it scares me. then met sis to head to sengkang to surprise mama at the old house. Cause its her __ birthday today!!!! ya but her face was damn unimpressed sobz.

<3 SO PRITZ

College Day

Had to go to school today in the noon (what the hell right) as a supporter/ applause-r for College Day which is basically Speech Day, to give awards to the students who did well, because they deserve it. It was surprisingly a good experience, and time did fly past though it was a tad boring. I really do hope to see myself up there a year later. #motivation #actionspeakslouderthanwords. This was a poem that the guest of honor shared, & i liked it alot. 

DesiderataGo placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

Mosaic 2013

school was boring like shit.

i was so nervous in the morning omg... but when lessons began it turned out to be a ordinary mundane day. 

after lessons, celebrated ming's bday for abit, im damn sorry it was a really really simple one, cake song present pictures kinda routine. 

Then rushed with lihui to amk hub to get flowers. i think we both look quite pretty, at that moment. 

after changing into our gowns and rushing about, we were oiily and sweaty as hell.

HAHAHAHA it was interesting, buying bouquets of flowers, first time buying bouquets man!!

ate shaker fries, and bought shaker fries for my 2 bffs jo & kes, & i wrote a sweet note to them, explaining the retarded pic of them both, so retarded. i think they were secretly touched thats why they took that photo (i didnt take it horh) 

peer tutoring --> more taking photos with ming --> preparation for concert!!!

a full run through of the concert, then dinner and last min practice plus photo taking, 

THEN IT WAS SHOW TIME

my gosh it was relatively good considering we only started preparing for it 3 weeks before & we prepared our section song - under the sea 2 days ago LOL. we've got ballz. 

i;d consider it a success really, i hope the audience enjoyed it as much as i did woohoo <3

my lovely girls came to support me then we had supper @ swee choon

whoooooo custard bun!!!! SSOOOOOOO DARNNNNN GOOOOOD. good food + good company = good time. HAHAHAHA #pun if you know what i mean.

overall a lovely day, needed this so bad.

marks the end of stressful reach home at 10 or later days & more time to focus on my lagging behind studies (i got scolded by mrs ong today me is sad) 

& got to meetup with them all since my birthday hehe. IM DAMN BLESSED

my family came to support too! although they came late -.- they were all impressed with my singing HAHAAHAHAHAHA JOKE. ok yup proud of myself, made little mistakes and buzzing though. nothing could have been more perfect than this. received flowers from the boy for the first time, so pretty i cant even. & reached home at midnight plus, then it was our anni. things are going so great right now i dont want it to ever deteriorate. But it will sadly, after i wake up things are gonna be back to normal, im not gonna feel special and this celebratory feeling will then be replaced by stress. gee im such a pessimist. hehe oh well i love everybodyyyyyyyyyyyyy <3 THANKS FOR TODAY :-)