argh all the negative thoughts in my head.
"i cant do this"
"why am i so stupid"
"ahya study also fail might as well dont study"
"why other people can score so well but not me"
"why everyone so hardworking but im here pigging"
"i hate myself"
"nobody cares"
"nobody understands"
some are true.
some people are that uncaring & insensitive, period.
Anyway school has been really mundane and school time seems damn long after stepping down from cca. Besides days where we end early without burden practices hehe. (like today)
Some updates:
Fri - Vesak Day
Headed to Jovin's (at like 9am all the way train ride to JE then to BB, kill me please) but it was ok surprisingly. i honestly thought it would be awkward and just not that fun. baked red velvet!!! it was sooooooooo good thanks to grace the baking jesus. The guys forced us to play Halo, OMG i suck at video/ electronic games for real. not even kidding i suck. big time. yup i got the message after them throwing insults at me for the thousandth time & killing me in the game the moment i resurrect.
had fun jamming with them on the piano/guitar & just slacking (& avoiding nicky the dog)
Then met swa for dinner & studied at mac near his place! Rather fruitful hehe :-)
Sat- spend quality time with simpson day
ya ok im damn needy & clingy i know.
studied in the morning then met swaswa, talked about deep stuff, it was good. Like it brought us closer. & we cooked lunch! (or he cooked) hehehehe it was a fun day & time flew by like that.
Sunday - supposedly mugging day
morning - noon, finished as many homework as possible. I swear the teachers think the vesak day break is some kinda mini june holiday break, gave us so much homework to complete ARGH. then car, yy & ser came over to study!!! it was all good before serene came.......... HAHAHAHHAHA. Then we couldnt focus. Jammed & karaoke-d until my family started to stroll into the house... awkwardz, we got softer & softer HAHAHAHAHHA can you imagine it?!
It was so fun i miss them so damn much.
Monday - TIRED AS HELL. cause i slept so late. cause the girls left at like 1030 the day before. BOOOOOOOOOOORING. chem test, im so pissed off with myself.
Tuesday - PE was zzzzzz and it was such a long and boring day OMG. struggled to keep awake in class. but met joanne & aaron for dinner, Bitches, i scarifaced my studying time for them. it was good get together time ah. I feel like we're people of all walks of life.
Today - rather short day, math corrections lecture, pissed off with my stupidity, chem test, then econs test was shitty, pissed off with myself x 2. then homed & met the boy for a froyo date!!!! hehe i love spending time with swa. im damn myself with him it scares me. then met sis to head to sengkang to surprise mama at the old house. Cause its her __ birthday today!!!! ya but her face was damn unimpressed sobz.
<3 SO PRITZ
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