Somewhere only we know

You know the feeling when you're so angry that tears well up and you feel like the biggest idiot crying over things/people that don't even matter. And how you have expectations of ppl but they fall short & you get so mad but then you forgive them in account for how long you've known them & the better memories and then some shit happens & it's a vicious cycle. 

I feel like the stupidest person ever, loving people that don't deserve it and not loving the ppl that I should.

I just need to get this all out once and for all how I hate ppl who doesn't understand my work situation & think I'm having it the easy way. How I'm letting my demons take over me, I'm not the same nice, let ppl get on me person I was years ago, now I'm trying to show my true emotions (ain't working too well) and I actually don't like to share things unless I love you a lot & I don't like doing things for ppl because they don't even appreciate it. 

Sucks to love ppl & the same is not reciprocated. Ppl including myself ought to reflect repent regret once in a while, really. Such insensitivity/ uncaring/ brattiness/ annoying behavior is unacceptable.