the feeling that you dont belong anywhere, that nobody likes you and its crazy going to school seeing people of all walks of life, judging some, respecting some, but being close to none.
Highly irritable & unhappy at the smallest things cause i tend to overthink stuff. But i really dislike people who arent as good as they think they are yet acting all cool & superior.
But at the same time who am i to judge? Never ever good enough and blah, but at least i play my peace and shut my mouth.
Really miss NAS & the people there....... AJ is such a foreign place + the fact that people wearing fake smiles everywhere you dont know whos real & sadistic teachers who cant teach & leave us in the lurch & demand us to carry the guitar with hard casing home, not like i stay blocks away from the school. The whole world is gonna curse me when i board the bus with that bulky thing and hog up the whole space, not that i can help it, & the fact that the bus is already so packed with foreign workers who really smell bad & i dont know what to do. Ranting like some bitch here but its pathetic to rant these nonsensical stuff to a human being so yeah.
But the guy that i was teaching today in guitar was really nice :-) i love nice people. why cant everybody be nice & sensitive & caring.
I suck You suck Everybody sucks. The world is a pretty screwed up place. Until im happier &get to catch up on my sleep, my days will remain grey.
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