concert for club rainbow:

 26 march :-) 

IM 18 BITCHES!!! HAHAHAHHA

 28 March - deb's bday :-)

GOOD FRIDAY :-)

 SAT: 

hehe flower from bby & girlies

me + tan = 2headed monster

HAHAHAH retarded peepos

i wish nothing but the best for you~

debi's birthday on thurs! a simple one but i hope she felt like a princess.

Guitar-ed, received a super pretty card from them, so touched!!! & it was a string changing session, at least i learnt a new skill heh.

i was so damn tired that day i swear.

Then swa fetched me from school cause he had morning paper!!! :-) 

then had oyster omelette when we reached pasir ris from the long bus ride home. 

 

Good Friday was really good :-) 

morning ser & xinyi came over to swim, ive always told myself i need to swim but me being me forever procrastinating heheh.

Had lunch at kopitiam & a mini catchup session it was simple yet good.

Then met swa to head to town to shop!!! went to douby ghaut, got macroons from canele, "my life is complete" i swear its like a circular desert from heaven. Especially the cookies & cream one. 

After that we walked to 313,  swear we're such a healthy couple always walking instead of taking public transport so we can spend quality time talking hehe. Headed to H&M cause i heard there was crazy sales. Yup there was indeed & the changing room queue was nuts. It was a pity the place was so crowded i didnt really get to slowly choose stuff. grabbed my basic tops again (white top & red dress) then walked around to find for other cheap deals. I was really cash tight or i would have bought alot more i swear. ): finally got debi a gift (i think she'll like it hehe) & swa got a jacket too!

we walked to orchard after shopping to check out the vans sale thingy my classmates were talking about & it was disappointing ): plus the place was so crowded and the sales items are still pretty expensive. not worth the trip. 

Then we trained back to  whitesands to have dinner at kopitiam & headed to some place to talk. It was a really good catching up time i think we talked for probably 2 hours or so, about school, relationships, friendships all. & we met huiyi & shihong hehehe.

Today had no piano in the morning so i did alot of homework!! :-)

followed up meet swa for lunch & buy our shoes & study at macs.

Then met serene to watch the host at tamp (our initial plan was to watch warm bodies at cine) 

the best part was after the movie i was so drained and tired from crying in the cinema i was so tempted to head home, then ser insisted that we should have dinner, thai food. 

HAHAHAHAH the girls were in Thai Express waiting for us when we entered. LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM TO BITS. although its been 4 days after my birthday, i still feel so loved. :-) 

caught up & went bonkers with them as per usual, & we were totally a public nuisance.

Enjoyed myself alot this week, besides the common tests.

my plans for tomorrow is to head to swa's place to catch warm bodies on funshion accomplanied by some cupwalker & cupnoodles woohoo! i cant wait. Hope i can reach home early tmr, ive been staying up quite abit these few days...... no wonder my parents arent so happy. booooooo. 

thankful for everyone :,) 

eighteen

today is one of the days when i dont know what im living for and what im worth
time check: 3.04AM got to wake up less than 3 hours later for burden school
today marks the end of block tests 2,
which i screwed upside down
THE FUCKING FEELING WHEN YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO BETTER
THE FUCKING REGRET OF NOT STUDYING HARDER.
ya thats it.

was so depressed over the freaking mistakes i made in the papers, i couldnt enjoy the end of block test celebration. It just doesnt feel good knowing that you suck and mentally prepared that youre going down.

Nevertheless i couldnt be a wet blanket and dampen everyone's mood so i had to pretend that i wasnt freaking pissed with myself, & we went for lunch at manhatthan fish market! SO GOOD OMG...... but ive been spending so much money like water ohno! followed by a treat for myself - koi, then guitar which was like less than 10 mintues of practising and slack/ discuss about concert and fooling around all the way hehe. serious mode on tomorrow im sorry.

So im currently 18 now, which i dont feel so a single bit.
Since i had 2 papers day, i had 3 papers on my birthday which was a huge spoiler, but im really grateful that my mates celebrated for me after math paper. Had my first virgin 'twelve cupcakes' from them AHHHH HEAVEN, & they got me a polaroid!! so did paiboon, winston & hweeyang. So my birthday presents this year are 2 polaroid cameras!!!! :-) im happy feeling so loved but i dont know which one to use cause its unfair to the other party..... decisions decisions.
Since we had to chiong home to study still, we didnt get to take pictures and under the stress mode it really didnt feel like my birthday at all. Im a huge fan of birthdays & i love to feel loved on that day. but this year was different. I wasnt even looking forward to it, & due to my low profile-ness, many people in my life forgot my birthday, (which kinda hurts me cause although it may seem insignificant for a little wish, it reflects my importance to them). Plus the fact that my girls cant celebrate me due to stupid tests like we used to for all previous years. It was saddening. But it was all better after meeting swa for dinner & to chit chat. It still didnt feel like my birthday, it just felt like a TGIF day. Got home and had no mood to study and turned in after replying to the nice people who wished me. WHICH I REGRETTED SO BADLY FOR NOT REVISING *SLAPS MYSELF LIKE CRAZY*

today is debi's birthday, and the end of this week!!! woohoo kinda looking forward to it cause although theres guitar tomorrow, swa is picking me up from school!!!! :-) stayed up to make debi's card/book. really put in alot of effort to it i hope she likes it, she'll be the reason for my eyebags and bad skin for tmr HEHE. OK my turn to sleep now! hope we get to take pictures tmr so i can share them here provided i remember to bring my new polaroid babies to school.

I really like the past better than the present
some people try to change the present and forget about the past
but the past is always there in the back of your mind
to haunt you, to guide you

miss the times when i was a kid,
worry free and ever so happy
now that people grow up
we get so distant and awkward
how is that even possible

i miss all those i was once close to
or just somehow acquainted,
sad that i dont see those familiar faces
that now are just my 'friends' on the social networks

miss all the nonsense in secondary school
all the cliques and gossips
punishments and rebelliousness
and all the split up couples, and friends
whom now remain as used-to-bes

im glad that i have a good memory,
remembering all the good times
but sadly the bad ones as well
but it makes my mind a complicated mystery,
which will all unravel one fine day

ma homies

swa's 18th birthday
thursday is my earliest dismissal day - 3.15, took 39 from khatib to tpj to surprise him!! (the bus ride was gooood, got seats and could sleep peacefully) It was a simple one, sneaked into tpj with the help of the guys & qianhui, THANKS GUYS!!! :-)
Then slacked with them as i did my work while waiting for junwen to end his lessons while swa was studying at the cafe and i lied that i was at home hehe. My first surprise for anyone that i planned so it was pretty thrilling for me HAHAHAHA loser much. it was pretty awkward........ cause i was so out of place but ARGHAHAHAHA whatever.
the big surprise took place, macroons & his ever so peaceful unsurprised face, damn. Then dinnered at ajisen with the bunch of guys hahaha awkward me again, but it was interesting, so many funny stories they shared.
Yup it was a simple one & everybody was tired from school plus anticipating school next day.
:-( wished it could be more special but who knows why his birthday didnt fall on the march holidays this year. hope he enjoyed himself nevertheless! <3

T&F meet @AJC + Founders day @ NAS
stupid qd pon school so i had to take her place to run the 8x50 relay, but sadly we didnt win ): thankfully i didnt fall & i wasnt last HAHAHAH
had quite alot of fun, cheering and all for all jaguarians in general, never really appreciated running till now & its too late. Last track meet in AJ & no medals for me throughout my life in aj, Sobz.
& the icing on the cake was that JAGUAR (which is my house) WON CHAMPS!!!!!!! :-) WOOHOOOOOO really god damn happy. it was all crazy cheering from us & the sad faces from the rest. :(
homed and napped for 3 freaking hours (i have no idea why im still so tired) then did some work & met aaron to go to NAS! on the way i bumped into huiyi!!!! its been long.......... missed her so damn much mwacks. lots of catching up to do. + revision & guitar practice...... its not gonna be easy to juggle. YUP FUN TIME @ NAS :-)))))) it was again awkward cause the juniors were ermz new? & i felt so old & unfamiliar with the staff & people in nas. i miss NAS like crazy & its really like home. Not the guai lan teachers........ or the crazy strict rules......... but the environment there & most of all the people there. It feels like home back there in the cds, but again, it doesnt due to all the strangers occupying the place. Irony.

 this girl the best at making weird faces

 derp!!

WAH KIN HANSUM BOI