here are some of my faves
Youre beautiful - James Blunt
Imagine - John Lennon
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
if you knew me
if you knew me youd know that i value results alot, & yup i disappoint alot
if you knew me youd know that i compare myself with others alot, & everyday it gets worse until something magical happens and i forget my flaws
if you knew me youd know that as much as i cherish my friends, i like to be alone because being alone is the definition of tranquillity.
if you knew me youd know that i try my best to challenge myself, so dont you dare judge me
if you knew me youd know that im really chatty, so when im not, you ought to know im upset
if you knew me youd know that im really sensitive & very often i pretend to not hear things people say simply because i dont know how to react to them.
if you knew me youd know that i like it when people show their appreciation to me, so i know they're not just using me and discarding me when im not of use
if you knew me youd know that i hate it when people tap/hit me, really.
if you knew me youd know that im really messy & disorganised, but dont tell me what to do or how
messy i am because please tell me something i dont know.
if you knew me youd know that i can be selfish selectively
if you knew me youd know that i put on a façade so well im so clueless about who i really am
if you knew me youd know that i ponder about stuff alot, positive, negative, life, death.
if you knew me youd know that you hardly know me at all.
if you knew me youd know that i compare myself with others alot, & everyday it gets worse until something magical happens and i forget my flaws
if you knew me youd know that as much as i cherish my friends, i like to be alone because being alone is the definition of tranquillity.
if you knew me youd know that i try my best to challenge myself, so dont you dare judge me
if you knew me youd know that im really chatty, so when im not, you ought to know im upset
if you knew me youd know that im really sensitive & very often i pretend to not hear things people say simply because i dont know how to react to them.
if you knew me youd know that i like it when people show their appreciation to me, so i know they're not just using me and discarding me when im not of use
if you knew me youd know that i hate it when people tap/hit me, really.
if you knew me youd know that im really messy & disorganised, but dont tell me what to do or how
messy i am because please tell me something i dont know.
if you knew me youd know that i can be selfish selectively
if you knew me youd know that i put on a façade so well im so clueless about who i really am
if you knew me youd know that i ponder about stuff alot, positive, negative, life, death.
if you knew me youd know that you hardly know me at all.
Friday, July 5, 2013
temporary liberation
YAY the 5 day crazy Mid Year CT is over!!!!!!
& so is the much treasured june hols. T.T
heheheh life feels so aimless yet good not having to be buried in books today.
had a pretty bad math p2..... such a disappointment ohno, careless + brainless.
then went to lenise's house to lepak followed by despicable me with the clique.
to be honest despicable me isnt really my thing..... hahhahaha but since it was a clique thing (i thought it would be) plus a destress session, so it was good. omg i realised it was our first movie together!! oh besides hunger games the other time last year to celebrate my birthday. so sweet <3
went home, continued my dream high, ate early dinner cooked by my mama then napped. it was so horrible i knocked out for more than 4 hours.........
how ah guys i keep screwing up my exams.
anyway kelly just posted the junie birthday party pics on fb, omg we are damn cute lol. plus those were good times. damn happy and carefree :-)
loved my june hols & how i managed my time, not bad actually. hahahahhaha but sense of urgency must up up up up!!!! sums up my adventure with swa on 11th, sentosa with class clique on 12th, junies birthday celebration on 13th, serene's badminton + dinner celebration on 14th, carina's airport surprise on 16th. ahyo no pics in my phone of huiyi's damn atas dinner at house on 18th & yeeying's breakfast surprise on 19th. :( very happening right my june hols HAHAHAHAHA. amazing how i squeeze my time out for studies actually.
but but but i have a confession to make. during the exam week...... i was so slack and hooked onto dream high i finished it in a week, this week. as in exam week. OMG IM BEYOND HORRIBLE.
OK BYE. i just saw wardrobemess has this $19,90 knotted dress, someone buy for me? :-((((((
& so is the much treasured june hols. T.T
heheheh life feels so aimless yet good not having to be buried in books today.
had a pretty bad math p2..... such a disappointment ohno, careless + brainless.
then went to lenise's house to lepak followed by despicable me with the clique.
to be honest despicable me isnt really my thing..... hahhahaha but since it was a clique thing (i thought it would be) plus a destress session, so it was good. omg i realised it was our first movie together!! oh besides hunger games the other time last year to celebrate my birthday. so sweet <3
went home, continued my dream high, ate early dinner cooked by my mama then napped. it was so horrible i knocked out for more than 4 hours.........
how ah guys i keep screwing up my exams.
anyway kelly just posted the junie birthday party pics on fb, omg we are damn cute lol. plus those were good times. damn happy and carefree :-)
loved my june hols & how i managed my time, not bad actually. hahahahhaha but sense of urgency must up up up up!!!! sums up my adventure with swa on 11th, sentosa with class clique on 12th, junies birthday celebration on 13th, serene's badminton + dinner celebration on 14th, carina's airport surprise on 16th. ahyo no pics in my phone of huiyi's damn atas dinner at house on 18th & yeeying's breakfast surprise on 19th. :( very happening right my june hols HAHAHAHAHA. amazing how i squeeze my time out for studies actually.
but but but i have a confession to make. during the exam week...... i was so slack and hooked onto dream high i finished it in a week, this week. as in exam week. OMG IM BEYOND HORRIBLE.
OK BYE. i just saw wardrobemess has this $19,90 knotted dress, someone buy for me? :-((((((
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Ive been enjoying my holidays like crazy im so screwed for the mycts. unpreparedness overload.
from the 10th June kept going out like crazy till now and gonna be more outings up next.
11th was me & swa's monthsary, we caught "Now you see me" at the Cathay, its been long since we went to town together hehe & we went shopping but came back empty handed so disappointing. Such a good day we took polaroids!! & ate BFF
12th: Sentosa with the 33/12 girls!!!!
IT WAS MADNESS. SO FUN OMG. Frisbee, volleyball, chubbybunny, picturesque scene and all. throwing each other into the water and the 'protect the king aka dodge ball" game. followed by dinner after that at Asia Kitchen. a fun filled day indeed <3
13th: Junies birthday party at my place HAHAHA function room i meant.
simple celebration, photo taking, running man games, swimming, chubby bunny, song game, pizza and drinks & laughs, alot alot of laughs. :-) miss simple get togethers like this.
14th: Serene's 18th! Had school in the morning, but one of the most fruitful econs lesson + chem consultation ever. Homed with a fried brain, napped, did work then went to play badminton with the girls & dinner with them at Just Acia. Gonna be spending alot of time with them this 2 weeks, their birthdays are so clumped together!!! that means no time to study + money fly away. Really need to have time management woo ying jia >:(
15th: was a finally stay at home day. didnt get alot done though, but i missed my bed & guitar and all. So yup napped and jam-ed alot today. may tmr be a more productive one. Carina's birthday & fathers day tmr, so maybe not HAAHHAHA.
from the 10th June kept going out like crazy till now and gonna be more outings up next.
11th was me & swa's monthsary, we caught "Now you see me" at the Cathay, its been long since we went to town together hehe & we went shopping but came back empty handed so disappointing. Such a good day we took polaroids!! & ate BFF
12th: Sentosa with the 33/12 girls!!!!
IT WAS MADNESS. SO FUN OMG. Frisbee, volleyball, chubbybunny, picturesque scene and all. throwing each other into the water and the 'protect the king aka dodge ball" game. followed by dinner after that at Asia Kitchen. a fun filled day indeed <3
13th: Junies birthday party at my place HAHAHA function room i meant.
simple celebration, photo taking, running man games, swimming, chubby bunny, song game, pizza and drinks & laughs, alot alot of laughs. :-) miss simple get togethers like this.
14th: Serene's 18th! Had school in the morning, but one of the most fruitful econs lesson + chem consultation ever. Homed with a fried brain, napped, did work then went to play badminton with the girls & dinner with them at Just Acia. Gonna be spending alot of time with them this 2 weeks, their birthdays are so clumped together!!! that means no time to study + money fly away. Really need to have time management woo ying jia >:(
15th: was a finally stay at home day. didnt get alot done though, but i missed my bed & guitar and all. So yup napped and jam-ed alot today. may tmr be a more productive one. Carina's birthday & fathers day tmr, so maybe not HAAHHAHA.
This song is so beautiful. Demons - Imagine Dragons
Sunday, June 9, 2013
now playing : You Found Me
isnt it funny that we grow up and theres too little time too much to do?
but when we were younger we had the time of our lives, we didnt cherish it, we wasted time ( i mean come'on we;re kids) & we had rather limited stuff to do.
Now its like 24 hours isnt even sufficient for me to have a work life balance.
Its just so tough im starting to wonder whether its worth my time hanging in there. & whether im choosing the right path. (im referring to geog) cause GEOG SUCKS. & i have no common sense. like im expected to know all the countries on the world map. but sadly i dont.
Its so annoying that everyone is coping well but im lagging behind
its starting to trigger the inner competitiveness in me (only swa would know)
& its making me such an ugly person deep down like im only doing things to succeed/ for the sake of doing it.
im working doubly hard (i think) but its like the outcome is so uncertain is it even worth the sacrifice of my yolo life?
I see my friends going overseas/ going wild blah on instagram it makes me so envious because i know they can afford to do all that, and still score well, super well in fact. well enough to beat the crap outta me.
Its so annoying i cant even stop ranting about how unfair life is. they say god has plans for you, im really wondering what god has planned for me. & i wanna know right now cause if this isnt the suitable path for me why am i wasting my youth away? Its so crazy now that im 18 things start to not make sense, when ironically it supposed to make sense.
planning for the junie's birthday i realised how old we are now HAHAHHA. & how different all of us are, i wouldnt be able to imagine life in their shoes.
isnt it funny that we grow up and theres too little time too much to do?
but when we were younger we had the time of our lives, we didnt cherish it, we wasted time ( i mean come'on we;re kids) & we had rather limited stuff to do.
Now its like 24 hours isnt even sufficient for me to have a work life balance.
Its just so tough im starting to wonder whether its worth my time hanging in there. & whether im choosing the right path. (im referring to geog) cause GEOG SUCKS. & i have no common sense. like im expected to know all the countries on the world map. but sadly i dont.
Its so annoying that everyone is coping well but im lagging behind
its starting to trigger the inner competitiveness in me (only swa would know)
& its making me such an ugly person deep down like im only doing things to succeed/ for the sake of doing it.
im working doubly hard (i think) but its like the outcome is so uncertain is it even worth the sacrifice of my yolo life?
I see my friends going overseas/ going wild blah on instagram it makes me so envious because i know they can afford to do all that, and still score well, super well in fact. well enough to beat the crap outta me.
Its so annoying i cant even stop ranting about how unfair life is. they say god has plans for you, im really wondering what god has planned for me. & i wanna know right now cause if this isnt the suitable path for me why am i wasting my youth away? Its so crazy now that im 18 things start to not make sense, when ironically it supposed to make sense.
planning for the junie's birthday i realised how old we are now HAHAHHA. & how different all of us are, i wouldnt be able to imagine life in their shoes.
Monday, June 3, 2013
Heres to never growing up
Volunteered to be a facil with the guitar bitches at peying primary today, Camp Pride is the event.
i really miss the primary school life where we could afford to run around and could play our life away. Work was like the least of our worries and other relationships and other complex stuff.
Also the kids were so enthusiastic and keen on learning and participate, i used to do all that too.
keyword: used to. Raise my hands up and answers teacher's questions acting like some goody two shoes cum teachers' pet. Now all i do is to pray that teachers dont pick me. l-o-l
You could afford to be bratty and irritating and disobedient and playful without getting judged or reprimanded (alot) cause well, kids will be kids.
i miss all that.
and the environment i realised.
the colourful blocks of classrooms, nicely decorated notice boards, posters for education purposes, alot of handicrafts and cutesy stuff. oh how i miss all that.
art work pasted all over done by students & the educational messages/ posters , dentist in the school giving out sweets if we dont cry (haha at the irony)
my primary school life was certainly the best.
Being a prefect and my clique of smarty pants and loveable guys&girls. HAHAHAHA the story of our gang's frenemies OMG epic shit. ok long story short. the guys and girls used to hate each other to the core, guys used to bully us and make fun/laugh at us. but secretly they like to hang out with us la. then upper primary i dont know what magic happened, we became inseparable crazy clique.
ya anyway today was really really fun, the kids are so so brave and loveable and hyper and so active. i wish i still had their energy hahaha talking like a oldie.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
its the last week of school guys!!!!! SO YA. HANG THE F ON.
argh all the negative thoughts in my head.
"i cant do this"
"why am i so stupid"
"ahya study also fail might as well dont study"
"why other people can score so well but not me"
"why everyone so hardworking but im here pigging"
"i hate myself"
"nobody cares"
"nobody understands"
some are true.
some people are that uncaring & insensitive, period.
Anyway school has been really mundane and school time seems damn long after stepping down from cca. Besides days where we end early without burden practices hehe. (like today)
Some updates:
Fri - Vesak Day
Headed to Jovin's (at like 9am all the way train ride to JE then to BB, kill me please) but it was ok surprisingly. i honestly thought it would be awkward and just not that fun. baked red velvet!!! it was sooooooooo good thanks to grace the baking jesus. The guys forced us to play Halo, OMG i suck at video/ electronic games for real. not even kidding i suck. big time. yup i got the message after them throwing insults at me for the thousandth time & killing me in the game the moment i resurrect.
had fun jamming with them on the piano/guitar & just slacking (& avoiding nicky the dog)
Then met swa for dinner & studied at mac near his place! Rather fruitful hehe :-)
Sat- spend quality time with simpson day
ya ok im damn needy & clingy i know.
studied in the morning then met swaswa, talked about deep stuff, it was good. Like it brought us closer. & we cooked lunch! (or he cooked) hehehehe it was a fun day & time flew by like that.
Sunday - supposedly mugging day
morning - noon, finished as many homework as possible. I swear the teachers think the vesak day break is some kinda mini june holiday break, gave us so much homework to complete ARGH. then car, yy & ser came over to study!!! it was all good before serene came.......... HAHAHAHHAHA. Then we couldnt focus. Jammed & karaoke-d until my family started to stroll into the house... awkwardz, we got softer & softer HAHAHAHAHHA can you imagine it?!
It was so fun i miss them so damn much.
Monday - TIRED AS HELL. cause i slept so late. cause the girls left at like 1030 the day before. BOOOOOOOOOOORING. chem test, im so pissed off with myself.
Tuesday - PE was zzzzzz and it was such a long and boring day OMG. struggled to keep awake in class. but met joanne & aaron for dinner, Bitches, i scarifaced my studying time for them. it was good get together time ah. I feel like we're people of all walks of life.
Today - rather short day, math corrections lecture, pissed off with my stupidity, chem test, then econs test was shitty, pissed off with myself x 2. then homed & met the boy for a froyo date!!!! hehe i love spending time with swa. im damn myself with him it scares me. then met sis to head to sengkang to surprise mama at the old house. Cause its her __ birthday today!!!! ya but her face was damn unimpressed sobz.
argh all the negative thoughts in my head.
"i cant do this"
"why am i so stupid"
"ahya study also fail might as well dont study"
"why other people can score so well but not me"
"why everyone so hardworking but im here pigging"
"i hate myself"
"nobody cares"
"nobody understands"
some are true.
some people are that uncaring & insensitive, period.
Anyway school has been really mundane and school time seems damn long after stepping down from cca. Besides days where we end early without burden practices hehe. (like today)
Some updates:
Fri - Vesak Day
Headed to Jovin's (at like 9am all the way train ride to JE then to BB, kill me please) but it was ok surprisingly. i honestly thought it would be awkward and just not that fun. baked red velvet!!! it was sooooooooo good thanks to grace the baking jesus. The guys forced us to play Halo, OMG i suck at video/ electronic games for real. not even kidding i suck. big time. yup i got the message after them throwing insults at me for the thousandth time & killing me in the game the moment i resurrect.
had fun jamming with them on the piano/guitar & just slacking (& avoiding nicky the dog)
Then met swa for dinner & studied at mac near his place! Rather fruitful hehe :-)
Sat- spend quality time with simpson day
ya ok im damn needy & clingy i know.
studied in the morning then met swaswa, talked about deep stuff, it was good. Like it brought us closer. & we cooked lunch! (or he cooked) hehehehe it was a fun day & time flew by like that.
Sunday - supposedly mugging day
morning - noon, finished as many homework as possible. I swear the teachers think the vesak day break is some kinda mini june holiday break, gave us so much homework to complete ARGH. then car, yy & ser came over to study!!! it was all good before serene came.......... HAHAHAHHAHA. Then we couldnt focus. Jammed & karaoke-d until my family started to stroll into the house... awkwardz, we got softer & softer HAHAHAHAHHA can you imagine it?!
It was so fun i miss them so damn much.
Monday - TIRED AS HELL. cause i slept so late. cause the girls left at like 1030 the day before. BOOOOOOOOOOORING. chem test, im so pissed off with myself.
Tuesday - PE was zzzzzz and it was such a long and boring day OMG. struggled to keep awake in class. but met joanne & aaron for dinner, Bitches, i scarifaced my studying time for them. it was good get together time ah. I feel like we're people of all walks of life.
Today - rather short day, math corrections lecture, pissed off with my stupidity, chem test, then econs test was shitty, pissed off with myself x 2. then homed & met the boy for a froyo date!!!! hehe i love spending time with swa. im damn myself with him it scares me. then met sis to head to sengkang to surprise mama at the old house. Cause its her __ birthday today!!!! ya but her face was damn unimpressed sobz.
<3 SO PRITZ
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